The First 3 Months

No, I am not pregnant. I did not say trimester, I say 3 months.

So, i've been falling off the exercise/workout wagon so many times I've lost count. But, I finally realise that unless you really want it then it will not happen. You just have to want to make that change. So what if you fell? What's important is that you go back up and start again! We're not perfect, we're bound to have off days but as long as you don't let the off days linger and get right back then you should be just fine. I think it was reading Bob Greene's article that liberates me. Instead of berating myself, just think, ok maybe I miss/skip/didn't feel like going to the gym today but tomorrow I just have to clear an hour in my day to go there.

and that is exactly what I did.

I just keep coming back to the gym. Some days I forced myself to go. It paid off. Now my body ask for a workout if I've missed it. I can feel my body is aching to go back to get some cardio and a bit of weight thrown in. I can feel myself getting stronger and I like it. I've lost a bit of weight on the upper part of my body, I've actually gone down a size but alas the lower part is still refusing to budge. The lower part is in between sizes. the current one is getting loose but the one under is still a bit tight.

I need to work on my food now. I need to change my eating habit. It is still a bit bad. Need to reduce this and add more of that. Ok, so that's what's been happening. Let's see the progress I make from here on...

Part 3 - Reasons to Exercise

Yes, she knows, one is supposed to lead a healthy life, exercise and eat well and all that. But how come when it comes to actually doing it one is suddenly so damn unavailable? Hubby hints the other day that didn't she bought a sneaker the other day? Eer... yes... it is there on the credit card statement. So how come he never sees her wearing it? She could of course, provide an elaborate answer saying oh I exercise when you're at work etc etc etc... But the simple truth is, the shoes are still in the box.

Reasons why the shoes are still in the box:
1) She bought it just before Ramadhan. One could but does not desire to exercise during fasting. Prefer to sleep. Or read the Quran.
2) She's in the middle of redecorating her apt - read: re arranging her study, books, etc. Thus is 'exercising' around the house.
3) Lost some weight during Ramadhan. No need to exercise yet.

But you know, those lost kilos are quickly finding themselves. Worse, they bring their friends and their sisters along. Oy! The FSG really really must get off her butt and haul them downstairs to the gym. It's there, it's free - well they already paid for it with the monthly service charge. So what is this imaginary boulder that blocks her path from the gym? Especially when she actually needs it. Badly. Diabetic Dad, family history of heart disease and asthma, a husband, two kids. Does she needs a longer list?

She has the books, the props, some gear. She even promised herself a red iPod. Still, she procastinates. Even though she told her daughter don't put off till tomorrow what you can do today. Hypocrite much?